Ok so for a while now I have had some major walls up between me and God. It started w/ simple things then just got larger and larger to the point that I figured I might as well go out w/ a bang cause I was too far gone. Well that didn't go down so well as one might imagine. God completely broke my heart. So for once in man I would say pretty darn close to a year I picked up my Bible. I don't really know what I was looking for, but I knew God wasn't giving up on me. He was and still is pulling me out of my mess, and helping me become the person He wants me to be, not the one who I wanted to be or thought I wanted to be. While flipping through the pages I found this totally awesome tid-bit. I know it's somewhere in John, don't know exactly where cause I'm taking it outta the message Bible, but here goes. This is when Jesus is telling the people that He is the bread of life.
Jesus said, "I am the bread of life. The person who aligns with me hungers no more and thirsts no more, ever. I have told you this explicitly because even though you have seen me in action, you don't really believe me. (now the good stuff) EVERY PERSON THE FATHER GIVES ME EVENTUALLY COMES RUNNING TO ME. AND ONCE THAT PERSON IS WITH ME, I HOLD ON AND DON'T LET GO.
Now how amazing is that no matter how bad u think you have screwed things up Jesus is right there holding you, and He isn't going to let you fall. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get rid of God. I wanted so bad to live my own life, break the molds, defy authority, be my own person, I just messed it all up. I know God has something huge planned for me, but I got scared and ran instead. I wasn't really ready to give up EVERYTHING to Him. Now I'm ready. I'm ready to stop running and start living. I'm ready to take that leap, and I'm gonna have the determination and perseverance to do it and not screw it up. I have tried many times and failed. Like Thomas Edison said he didn't fail he just found 2000 ways not to make the lightbulb. I found many different ways not to live life, I don't regret them ya I made mistakes but I'm not letting those hold me down. God's gonna see me through, and I'm gonna stick w/ Him to the bitter end this time. No more me, just Him working through me. Thank you for reading my rambles. God is amazing. I'll leave you with that.
Jensen
Teens and twenties are often difficult years we spend finding ourselves only to discover on the horizon of turning thirty 'tis better to remain a five year old at heart! Don't give up. Be who you are. He made you this way for a reason. Now start asking him why he made you that way and he'll show you.
DO WHAT I SAY! (how's that for inspiration.) Know that you are dearly loved and being prayed over.
-Les
Mamareed78 said...
April 15, 2008 at 7:57 PM